Another addition to the 30 things page. This has taken me way longer than originally planned; I was thinking two months, and I’m afraid to say how many months we are going on now. Also, I don’t really remember how long it’s been since I started this venture. All I know is I need to finish what I started.
1.) Moving to Chicago ‘on my own’- When I graduated high school, I enrolled in college, dropped out, enrolled in a nanny school and three months later moved to Chicago all by my lonesome to become said nanny. I was scared to death to go out there and had no idea just how much Chicago would end up changing my life (for the better!). I was a small-town girl dropped into the heart of the city, and was in culture shock for the first few weeks. The first time I rode the subway alone it was an express (unbeknownst to me) and I ended up a few stops down the line, freaked out at this train barreling past all these stops. Eventually I learned my way around, made some friends and got my own place (with a roommate). It was scary, I hated to leave my family, but I did it and I survived.
2.) Being a Single Mom- Being a single mom is one of the hardest things I’ve done. It’s also the most rewarding. I wasn’t ready for children when I got pregnant, but I wouldn’t change it for anything in the world. I was a little rocky starting out, but I think I’m a pretty damn good mom now. I would do anything for Elijah, and he knows that. He knows how much I love him, and that’s what matters. I’m enjoying creating memories with him, happy memories. Looking back on my childhood I don’t remember a lot of happy times with my mom, nor do I remember just being care-free. I want Elijah to look back on his childhood and remember all the times we laughed, all our inside jokes, and all our silly times. I also want to give credit where credit is due and thank my parents for all of their help- I wouldn’t be able to do half of what I have done without their continued support.
3.) Graduating College- When I first enrolled in college, I was fresh out of high school. I never even made it to the first day before I dropped out. (Don’t judge- I did go to nanny school instead). I tried again a few years later in Chicago, but quit after two semesters when I got pregnant and moved back to Ohio. The third time I went back Elijah was 5, and I was working full-time at the airlines. 6-years later, I finally graduated with 2 Associates’ Degrees and no inkling of a job. Even though it took me so long, and there were times I absolutely hated school, I kept pressing on. I hope that I showed Elijah how important education really is and through hard work and dedication you can accomplish anything.
4.) Learning to ‘make it on my own’- While I sometimes have more out than in, or some months where we literally can’t do anything ‘extra’ outside paying of the bills, I’ve made it on my own. I’ve got a sense of responsibility, what it actually means to be grown-up… and I get it. I’m working to barely make ends meet, and I understand my parents just a little bit more, what it must have been like for them when we were little. I appreciate them and their hard work all the more.
5.) Not being afraid to ask for help- I’ve finally reached the point in my life where I have stopped being afraid to ask for help. My pride no longer gets in the way when I need to admit to myself I can’t do something on my own. I used to get so upset and nervous when I would have to ask my parents for help, I’d be nauseous and near tears. No more do I feel that way. I’ve told myself 100 times that were Elijah in the same boat and needed help, I would help him. It’s what family does- we stand by and help each other. I need help in a couple other areas in my life and am now seeing a counselor and a psychiatrist- something I would never have admitted to anyone a year ago, let alone felt comfortable enough to just go ahead and get help.
While these may not seem like a big deal to some people, these things have made me who I am, and shaped and molded me into the person I am today. What are some your your greatest accomplishments?